Posts Tagged ‘anger’

Full Circle

Leahm on 4:20 pm June 7th, 2010 / 1 Comment »

Allow me to present an interesting–to me, at least–follow-up to some of my previous posts on exercise and on anger.  When posted, they didn’t necessarily have anything to do with each other.  But I’ve been observing some interesting stuff…  As mentioned in the exercise post, now that I’m deeper into yoga study, I rarely go to the gym or do aerobic exercise.  Which is nice in a lot of ways, as it had become a real chore to think about scheduling in gym time.  And while many times I felt better afterwards, there were increasingly times that I didn’t feel very good during or after my workout.  (I think I was experiencing mild panic attacks on the elliptical trainer, actually!)  Anyhoo, later came my post on anger and irritation, and how I’ve been experiencing this a lot recently.  Granted, I am a Pitta, so I guess anger/irritation can somewhat come along with the territory (when provoked).  Add to this the fact that we’ve been in the high heat of summer, when Pitta is at its meatiest point.  One plus one equals two, duh.  In and amongst all of this observation of my emotional state is that I have also been frequently feeling a prickly, icky heat and sweat in my face, which I’ve chalked up to an anger/Pitta  imbalance.  Ok.  Facts laid out.  So, last Friday, I went to the gym and hung out on the elliptical trainer listening to fun music and reading silly magazines for nearly an hour.  Just a few minutes into it I was like, aw, yeah, this feels GOOD.  And I tell you, up until yesterday, when some things occurred that tickled my irritant hot spots, I hadn’t experienced the face sweat thing.  So, sometimes aerobic exercise may be just the energy-moving block that does the trick.  Sweet!  Free therapy!

Sweet Thang

Leahm on 9:43 am May 27th, 2010 / 2 Comments »

Lately I have found myself getting very angry about things.  Lots of things.  Mostly little things.  But they start to feel bigger once a bunch of the little things pile up.  And what makes me angrier, ironically enough, is that I KNOW, as I’m experiencing the anger (frustration, annoyance, whatever), that I’m overreacting, even that, in some way, I’m just creating the drama to have the drama.  A very bizarre experience to have and hold that simultaneous knowledge (be upset/know that you’re creating/exaggerating that upsetness).

So as I try to deal with this, to sit with it, as one smart friend reminded me to do, to acknowledge and accept and move on with it, as I try to remind myself to do, I was very happy last night to go to Leigh Ann’s class.  (This was my first class with her, really enjoyed it overall.)  She focused the theme of the class on giving and receiving, WITHOUT JUDGEMENT.  You know, I had almost completely forgotten this tenet of yoga–to be without judgement, especially towards my own self.  So, as I work with the stuff that’s going on in my head and body, I will try to process without judgement, which is such a sweeter, more compassionate place from which to work, and for which I’m grateful to embrace.